Hello hello hello. It really has been too long. All the things ever have happened. Too much to write on one post for fear that my brain will melt. Even further than it already has. But its both exciting and bloody nerve wracking, good and bad all at the same time. It's a very confusing time. Confusing for poor Mr B as there will be some days when I come home happy and content and fine and some when I'm a quivering mess and teary and I forget to warn him...
Adults forget to mention that becoming an adult is stupidly stressful and not at all easy like they make it out to be! Jobs, rent, bills, moving, relationships and friends, everything is all really really hard work. Being a child is so easy. All we had to worry about is which dinsoaur or princess we wanted to be and wether mum or dad was going to give us beans instead of peas with tea.
There was a post on facebook today about remembering to spend time with those you care about and not put work first, to remeber that today could be your last so don't be silly. It's very true and something I definatly need to work harder on. Not just with other half but with my family too. I don't see them often enough. And I do miss them. As with most families mine can be hard work, especially grandparent wise.
But.
I know I need to try more. I need to stop making work my everything and make my everything else important again. It's going to be hard cause I've tried ridiculously hard at work recently to make lives easier, just not my own. I worked out that I have about a weeks worth of lieu time to take off. Just from this past month and a half. I won't get it all off in one go mind you, there arn't enough staff to cover. But I'll try my hardest.
Due to not having much money come valentines day this year I decided to make Mr B some brownies to munch on as a present. Got to admit they were bloody lovely!! Tried to add popping candy to the mix but they melted out. But they were still amazing, proper gooey middles. I'll add fudge or caramel pieces next time for a bit more goo. Yumm!!
It's that time of year again to start making IOW costumes. But I'm stumped for the first time ever when it comes to ideas and its actually made me really sad. I think some of it is down to the fact that I have put on a bit of weight recently and I'm really not loving myself right now so I have very little self confidence... Another reason is that I'm just too focussed on work!! I've never been so driven in a job. Which is both good and bad. Hopefully I get it together and come up with something amazing like I try to do everytime but we'll see. Worst comes to worst ill wear my penguin onesie for the weekend and be content.
The picture is of a little creation of mine that is just ingenious. It consists of bacon wrapped around sausagemeat and stuffing layered together then baked. It's amazing...... Ommmmmmmm.... I just need to find a way of not making it salty. No matter what bacon I use it ends up a bit too salty for me, and I know it doesn't have to be. Maybe I have to fork out for gooooood bacon from the counter or butcher rather than from the shelves. I'll try that.
It's come from a recipe my dad used for sausagemeat in bacon that I used to love at Christmas. An excuse for a huuuge pig in blanket really!!
I've cooked a few roasts recently and I think I go a little overboard!! I don't know when to stop cause I love roasts and good veg and gravy. I was taught how to make yorksires from scratch too and that was awesome. But I do proper roast potatoes with crispy skins, roast parsnip with sometimes a honey glaze, roast onions, roast carrots, leek and cheese mess, peas, yorkshires, lots of meat, proper gravy, lots of other veg... About three times as much as the mother in law makes!! Need to learn roast portion control..
Should be asleep now, just seen the time. Need to do lots of work from home tomorrow as well as youthie shift. I shouldn't cause like I said I need time for other things but.... I'll start next week??
Night x
