Bad Bunny...

Wow, just realised that I haven't posted in a few days. Alot has been going on, lots of working and seeing family and stuff so I've not had the time!!
A few things I have been pondering the last couple of days...
1. I know I have been in a car accident so am still really really nervous about other people driving, but I seriously wonder how people passed their driving test when they drive like maniacs. When you agree to give someone a lift home, you agree basically to actually get them home safe. So why drive really dangerously and potentially put their life at risk?? I just dont get it.
But I do miss having a car....
2. Why the hell is it now apparantly fashionable for 30something women to just get pregnant?? I dont mean married couples, I mean the ones that scout out people to have a child with, lead them under false pretenses and then when they have a child and a potential stable relationship then blow it all because all they want is to go and hang out with all the other single mums and not be the odd one out!?!?!?!? Why!?!?!
3. Why do a half assed job, when you have been paid to and have the time to do it properly? The most you are going to get is angry phone calls, complaints and potentially be out of work in the future because no one wants to recommend you. Its really frustrating because it leaves a trail of destruction behind meaning that more people have to come and finish it or worst case re-do the lot and even more time and money has to be spent making sure that it is ok. Bring into the equation health and safety and people like the food standards agency and it makes everything twice as hectic.
4. I don't mean to be anti-social at the pub. Sometimes I just want to play a game on my phone because I am a little bored or I feel I can't contribute to the current conversation. I know I'm getting worse at it, but at the moment I am seeing the same group of friends nearly three or four times a week, and it gets to the point sometimes where there is nothing left to talk about. I guess I should start writing down conversation starters and go from there but that seems a little sad, right??
5. No, I dont know really why I blog. I dont think I'm using it like a diary, if I was I'd be doing this three or four times everyday and I just don't have the time or patience to. Mr Bunny didn't really understand the point of it all and thought it was a glorified diary. Sometimes I have alot of things going through my little head and it helps to set things out and work through it if I see it all written down. Its like he found it funny with all the lists I used to write. When I have my diary or a bit of paper around I am constantly writing down things; dates, numbers, things I need to remember, ideas... With both, its not for the benefit of other people that I write any of it down. If people want to read it and comment then great but my head sometimes needs clearing out.
4. I am definatly getting more creative recently. Not because of that dream, its only just occoured to me that it was about creativity. But I've almost finished making my camp cloak for scouts, then I can sew my many thousands of scout and guide badges on. Ive almost finished cutting out the pattern for a little capelett for a viking costume. Its dark grey faux fur with a silver satin style fabric lining. Its going to be so cute!!
Then I need to find a pattern for a top, a skirt and possibly leg warmers. Super cute!!
THEN I have offered to design the cocktail menus for work by hand. Me and mum went to a craft show at Farnborough on Sunday and there was a company there that makes loads of different stuff out of mdf, but make ring-bound book looking objects that would make awesome menus. I will post up pics of all my little projects soon. They're going to keep me busy!!
I think thats it for now. See? I should have written a list...
Bunny xx

Dreams...

I have some strange dreams. Sometimes its good that I forget about them due to how vivid or nightmareish they are. But last night I had the weirdest dream yet that only one section stays in my memory.
I was pregnant.
Normally I dont try and interpret my dreams. I am a thinker and I stress and worry easily and find it hard to shut down, so I put it down to my brain over working and making me have dreams about what I'm worried about.
But this time in reality I am not pregnant, nor worried about being pregnant, nor plan on it for a while. This kinda scared me. Is my body telling me I am, I just don't know it yet?? Is my body telling me its time to start trying?? Is my brain reminding me of all the problems I have had with 'my innards' and that its a sign??
I decided to have a look online for the meaning of this dream. Apparantly, it relates to my creativity and creating things. Not necessarily a new life but new projects and arty things.
I can kind of see how that relates to everything at the moment. The pub I have been cleaning and painting is hopefully going to open soon which means I get to learn how to run a pub. I like learning new things, I've had so many jobs but the best bits were always the learning.
I have just joined a band and we did some recording last night which is both exciting and terrifying at the same time. I get to re-invent myself as a musician again and have creative input.
I have got back into baking and cooking properly again which is awesome, my next venture is cake pops!!
I have also started getting into designing costumes. At scout camp there is always a theme and costumes have to be involved. Its the only part of theatre I have managed to cling on to, being able to create something epic from a bit of fabric or something from a charity shop.
So in a way, it makes sense. I just wish it wasnt depicted through me being preggers cause I'm SO not ready for that yet...
Bunny x

Eat less, fatty...

I have come to the conclusion that I don't like the word 'diet'. For me, its a word already filled with a set up for failure and dissapointment. Therefore, I am not starting a diet. Instead I am spring cleaning my eating habits. And boy do I need to do it fast!!
I realise also that with this spring clean I need to get back outside and do more. I miss working outdoors. So much fresh air and it makes you feel healthy.
I also know that I need to cut down on drinking (although I honestly dont drink that much but its more gow often I drink) and the old smoko. Again, I dont smoke that much but I want to quit.
More positive, less negative crappy thoughts too. Happy mind is happy body!!

Bunny x

Aftermath...

Dinner went really well, timing is awkward though because there are so many little bits to do. You cant cook the pudding whilst doing the main like with pies and cakes because you have to control the temperatures and conditions so much. But it was good. Taught my friend alot about cooking too as he is trying to teach himself.
Didnt do so well at the pub quiz though... We're having a bad streak of scores under 30 out of 60... Last night was pretty tough. We must try harder!
Today will consist of getting dressed, tidying the kitchen from last night, hanging out with my brother and having lunch then heading over to work. Only a few hours today though so hopefully I wont come home and fall asleep on the sofa like normal.
And hopefully this cold will start to shift soon, I'm a little bit fed up of being gunky all the time...
Bunny xx

Attitudes...

It has always puzzled me how a little bit of power can go to peoples heads and make them think they know an awful lot when, really, they don't.
Also, if you want a job done, speaking down to people is a sure-fire way of making sure it just won't get done.
Why do people do it??
Unnecessary really.
Bunny x

MasterCheft Haslemere...

I love to cook. I really do. I find it so relaxing and I can let my creativity flow. Ever since I was little I have always watched my Dad cook everything from bacon to stews and pies and puddings. I love the smells and the flavours. Like Dad, I like reading recipe books and cooking magazines to get lots of ideas. Whether we follow the recipe or not is a different matter and that is the beauty of cooking. The experimentation. Working out what looks good with what, what tastes good with what, and what smells good.
My Mum, on the other hand, is a very simple cook. I remember when I was about five or six Mum was cooking sausages under the grill and she had left them for a minute too long; all of a sudden smoke was billowing out of the kitchen and the sausages were on fire. She even burns toast in the toaster! But recently she has been trying harder to cook more complex dishes. She cooks a mean Lancashire Hot Pot.
Dad likes to take every opportunity to cook for people. Someone coming round for lunch? Small gathering? Massive party? He will always feed an army.

I like to bake cakes. I am a cupcake fiend and would love to be able to churn out delectable cupcakes and make the world a happier place. Everyone needs a cupcake! I bought myself a giant cupcake mould a few months back and I'm telling you, its not easy to get it right! Cupcakes themselves can be quite tricky to get perfect every time with gorgeous frosting, but the big ones are worse. My mould is two parts which makes it easier for timings. Or so you'd think. The top is about half the quantity of the lower but takes twice as long to cook, and even then the middle is sometimes still soggy and the outside is almost burnt. But I like the experimentation of the process. And I'm starting to get the other half into it too which is nice. He has made himself head taster. Its difficult to sometimes get him to stop eating the batter in case he eats the lot!
I have also got into making fudge. It is SO easy I don't know why I haven't tried it before. Again, the other half helps me make it because there is alcohol involved. He hasn't quite picked up that the more alcohol involved, the less it sets. But it tastes good which is the point. I have made Rum and Raisin fudge which is really good. The first batch didn't set properly as Other Half decided to sneak in alot of rum whilst I had my back turned... Cheeky! The last batch was a White Chocolate and Baileys fudge which, for some reason, even though I put in all the correct quantities REALLY didn't set. So we ended up turning it into a take on Cheesecake. Without the cheese. It was nice, put crushed digestives and melted butter all mixed up in the bottom of a flan dish and put the failed fudge on top. Very sweet and a bit alcoholic but nice.

My cooking opportunity today comes courtesy of a good friend who I haven't seen in a number of years. I do get to cook with my lovely other half but today I get free range of the kitchen without 'extra hands'. I was going to cook a roast as I was expecting the boys to be around but one is working and the other is a free spirit. He can cook himself a pizza later- he is incredibly fussy and difficult to cook for so is used to fending for himself in the freezer. Because of this, I have decided to make it quite simple. Tagliatelle Carbonara with streaky bacon and mushrooms for main, and Poached Pears in white wine with a chocolate sauce for desert. I have cooked these two for dinner a few times before and it has gone down rather well so lets hope today its just as successful! I shall try and put up pictures through the process if I can work out how to.

Wish me luck!!
Bunny x

New Beginnings

So. Here it is. Finally, after 22 years of life and various failed attempts at starting a blog I have buckled down and actually started to write. I don't know where this is going to lead me, but I'm looking forward to the many possibilities that letting go through blogging will lead me.
Right, a little bit about me now. Only a little bit mind you, otherwise I'll have nothing to talk about in other posts. Hmmm... I am a Scout and I'm damn proud of it! I have never been involved with a group of people and felt so much like a family. Not including my friends obviously, but in terms of 'recreational activities' I would never give up being a Scout. I am a Guider too, but only a leader. In Scouts I have the opportunity to still do things for myself. With a group of like minded people from all walks of life, getting involved with the most crazy stuff imaginable. There will be specific blogs about all this later on with hopefully some pics to help explain a bit more.
Thats it for now! I will be back soon with a few more brain musings.

Bye!
Bunny x